Okay, we've all gotten caught up in the self-help tapes, books, TV shows etc, etc, ad nauseum etc.

So I'm trying to figure out... am I

1. Co-dependent?

2. Passive/Aggressive?

3. On the old Karpman triangle?

4. Bi-Polar (I've determined I'm not)

5. BPD? ---- nah... that's my dad! LOL.

6. Adult ADD? Mom, sister and everyone else swears they are and so therefore I am, too!

7. Suffering from past life disorders.

8. Oh .... here's a good one..... PGMD ... Previous Generations Marital Disorder.

9. Ahhhhhh .... how about Targasm: Tingly sensation shoppers get when they find something really, really good at Target.

10. Sleep Disorder --- okay, this one I can relate to.

Get this. My huband won't let me sleep at night because he fears I'm "away" from him while I'm sleeping. I swear I am not lying! He's told me this one several occassions over the past two years, usually around 2:00 AM. He woke me up the other night and told me again.

Seriously I'm not complaining about my life. Everything I post must seem like a complaint about my life. I'm not complaining, I'm freakin' desperate. I'm to the point where I want to lace his evening tea with a sleeping aid.

To suggest we go to counseling is simply ridiculous. We've done it... three times now. He always ends up saying he doesn't need it anymore.

Here is the funny thing and --- God, I'm so tired --- any sane, mentally healthy person would think.... "WOW! That's weird. He won't let his wife sleep at night! He's afraid of being seperated from her." My husband does NOT understand this is a strange way to think.

I have my own issues.... I admit I'm the classic case of passive aggressive. I don't procrastinate. I purposely procrastinate either out of anger, or because I simply DON'T want to DO IT! I hate when people offer suggestions to make me better. I mean I fume inside. But, here is the thing. I recognize my weaknesses. I don't overcome them instantly, but there is a constant working on them to become a better person.

How do you deal with someone that cannot understand it isn't normal to feel seperated from someone else when they are sleeping? He thinks this is perfectly sane! Ergo, I get constant interupted sleep.

And this is the tip of the iceburg.